Day Twenty five

My day in great deal.

Honestly, you have more important things to do than read my day. So I am going to use this for a good ol' fashioned blog about thoughts with some things about my day.

Starting with this blog a day thing, at first I thought I was doing it because I needed prompts. And yes, I think that's true. I needed something to push me. But as I've written, I've learned that it wasn't that I didnt have things to write, it is that I didnt want to. I had all that craziness with the move and it just never stopped. And I didnt want to dwell, but I would share when anyone asked. I dunno, kept me quite I guess.

Something cool about that, I've been called as a Primary teacher and until New Years I am teaching the CTR 7 class (7 and 8 year olds). It's been really a trial by fire. My co-teacher never comes, so they called me to be someone more stable for the class, which I didnt know when they called me. Well, I was preparing for a lesson on forgiveness and it hit me that I could not teach them about it when I was not forgiving myself for the move. I was never angry at the people that did it. Weird? Sure. I was angry at me and I couldn't get over it being my fault. So I had a super awesome prayer and it's been an incredible healing process for me. The hardest part of the move was seriously the PTSD it brought me cause all I could do when I closed my eyes was see myself looking at the safe in the car and choosing not to bring it in, or relive hitting the floor when I walked in the door to call the police. And since my prayer and teaching these children, I haven't seen those things unless I purposely bring it up. And that has been amazing. I am so grateful for the gospel and prayer. Prayer is the ultimate.

Good news that did happen today, we got our insurance cards! We applied for Chloe and me but the big surprise is that Jamie got a card! We're super excited to see what this means for us, if that'll save on how much we spend of our loans or what not, but it is a huge relief. Especially cause I am in serious need of a nurse hotline! This pregnancy is so different, I just need some good ol' nurse lovin'.

Jameson had a final presentation tonight! Last week he is DONE with his FIRST semester of GRADUATE school! I am so proud of him. He has really risen to the occasion with school and then to add work on top of it when we saw the loans wouldn't be enough. He isn't sleeping much because he is up with Chloe at 6am then working the late holiday hours of 11:30pm. He is one of my heroes. I am so blessed to be married to a man so dedicated to his family.

And, back to the "topic at hand" I ended my day watching Dancing with the Stars finale and the Voice *curse curse curse* I'd rather be watching The Sing Off. Except Nicholas. He makes it worth it. And you know how I know I'm pregnant? I cry through every performance. Every. Performance.

Ending the night cleansed of poisons and full of homemade berry lattice pie :)