Heart Attack

Last night was a rough night for me. I have been having problems getting Chloe down. She'll fall asleep for 10 minutes and wake up because she has to poop. Then an hour later she'll fall asleep but wake up 10 minutes later. And it goes like this from when Jameson leaves (10pm) until about 1:30.

I think she understood me cause I was trying to get her sleepy again when I started to get the clenched throat 'i'm gonna cry' sound and told her very frankly that if she did not go to sleep this time around I couldn't do it anymore. I would leave her in her crib to cry for a while because I was too exhausted and my back hurt too much to continue this charade.

She slept.

Which, ironically enough is when my heart attack night started. You see, I've noticed that Chloe takes better EVERYTHINGS in her crib. But I've loved having someone in the room with me again every night and I am scared to death that when she sleeps in her crib that I'll go check on her and she'll be dead. So last night I sucked it up and did what I knew was right. I put her in her crib.

I went in to check on her this morning and she is safe! She didnt sleep through the night. She woke up once for a period of 20 minutes to eat. But she is still sleeping right now :) (9:30am) and I am very pleased! So pleased in fact that I am going back to bed!

Op....

She woke up.